I'm just sitting in my usual corner, drinking a bittersweet orange drink and realizing that I don't even know where to begin this blog. I guess you could say a lot has happened. I guess you could also say nothing has happened. Something has surely changed though. Hello, life.
I guess I'll begin with the usual greeting...
Hello Reader(s?).
My last post appears to be Wednesday. Oh right, I should explain my previous post.
I don't know if you caught the heavy sarcasm and slight denial, but... well, there was in fact heavy sarcasm and slight denial. Wednesday evening was not such a good evening, although the day it's self was good. I was trying to be optimistic, but it all seemed much too bitter. That did not stop me from posting such. Thursday was nothing like I dreaded. I arrived at school early, as per usual, and I panicked about my math exam with some friends, but they made me at least a tiny bit less anxious. I then wrote the exam at 8 am and... I'm confident I passed. Even if I only passed with a low percent in the 50s, that's a lot better than failing. It took me all of the one and a half hour provided, and I skipped only one question. I then went to the wonderful hallway, and became suddenly surrounded by some wonderful people... some wonderful friends, actually. (1) I then socialized for a bit, and got changed out of superlameuniformness. Afterwards called for a bit more socialization, and then some friends and myself left for the parking lot. We went to Emily's house. The five of us (and later, six) just... hung out. It was good. Movies, conversation, randomocity; just overall fun. For almost eleven hours, too. That was pretty much the bulk of my Thursday.
Friday, being today, although more like yesterday, seeing as it's currently 12:07 of Saturday was a little less eventful, but still very good. I went shopping in Michigan with my mother and brother. It was nice. I especially like relatively lengthy drives. I listen to music(2), read a bit, and then I look out the window and reflect on what I've been reading, and then further contemplate anything possibly relevant. (3)
Tomorrow, I don't know what's happening. I was hoping to hang out with Emily, but unless I talk to her tonight, this won't happen. It's probably not going to happen. Darn. Sunday and Monday, I'm hoping I can piece together a plan to see some people. Staying home is out of the question.
I guess this all I have to say, blog-wise. Here goes the rest.
(1) Regarding friends. So it seems I have accomplished what I was slowly convincing myself was impossible. That's right. I made friends. Not just any old friends either! I have a plentiful amount of truly wonderful people that I am well acquainted with. It seems that by isolating myself from majority of the student body has lead me to some of the most wonderful people. They're truly unique people, filled with life, personality and perspective. (4) Unfortunately, they're mostly all in the older grades, and bound to leave me behind eventually. But that's okay. That's what today, tomorrow, next week, next month and so on are for. To make the most of things.
(2) Music. Breaks from studying for my exams consisted of such. I've been researching and acquiring all sorts of new songs and artists to add to my music library. I'm currently at 1923 songs, which is a decent start. I feel like the more music I hear, the more knowledge (No, is it wisdom? Something completely different? I'm not too sure.) I am acquiring. In a way, this is true. Music can offer some of the most unique perspectives. It can be twisted, turned and interpretted so many different ways, offering so much for so many. I truly appreciate this.
(3) Lately, I admit I have been a very happy person. A large portion of this is because of (1), of course. That's not everything though. I'm learning a lot about life every day. I suppose spending time with older people is helping this progress, which is great. I love seeing things differently. I love finding the contrast in things, debating the decisions I make more thoroughly, and shaping all of my life. These young years of my life are key. Everyone I'm surrounded by, the things I do, and all that I learn are all building up to be the great thing that will be... The Rest Of My Life, really. I could throw in a thousand cheesy references right now, but that doesn't seem necessary. I can't really explain this all for you. It just came to me, and I guess soon enough it will just... come to you as well, if it hasn't yet. In a nutshell, I love life.
(4) Finally, perspectives. I'm sure I've mentioned perspective in this blog before. I am so incredibly engrossed with this concept. I want to see the world from every single abstract perspective I can ever find. I want to understand so much. However, this is no obsession or anything similar. This is nothing that my life depends on. It's just something interesting. I can think about perspectives for the longest periods of time, and scarcely get bored. It's all so endless. I suppose the more I understand all of this, the better I'll be able to connect with my favourite thing of all... people.
>Sometimes, I find myself thinking I hate humanity. Truth is, I most definitely do not. Sometimes, I just don't want to accept this. Now is not one of those times. In fact, I'm currently especially intrigued by one or two human beings. Hmm.
In conclusion, I'm growing up. I'm learning. I'm living. I'm completely terrified to post this. I am very insecure when it comes to truly speaking my mind. Once I re-read it, I'm sure I'll find all of this childish and laughable. Lacking in sufficiency. I really don't want to post this. Really. But I will. By posting this, and hopefully not deleting it, I'll be able to look back on this in the future. I can watch myself grow, through this blog? Maybe? After all, why not add my previous self's perspective to my collection of such?
That said, I'm leaving you with this quote, and then I'm off. Good night.
"It is easy to forget how full the world is of people, full to bursting, and each of them imaginable and consistently misimagined." :)
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