HELLO! Blogging tonight is more than necessary.

So today, I woke up feeling something like a lighter form of death. I went to sleep semi early last night and slept as late as I possibly could. Unfortunately, I only slept till around 11. I was determined to sleep my day away and lay in the darkness of my bedroom, thinking only the worst of thoughts. For whatever reason though, I dragged myself out of bed at 1 and showered. I washed all the scum down the drain, as well as any hope of doing absolutely nothing all day. I ate some celery and then cancelled previously considered plans with someone, because I'm lame like that. Did I really have any good reason to cancel? No, not at all. Nothing against the person, just everything against me. I wouldn't want to be a downer or anything.

For whatever reason, I considered hanging out with a different friend. With that friend, there's less pressure to be amazing and happy around them. But right during those five minutes, another friend texted me and asked to hang out. Remember how I said I have friends? I wasn't kidding. So I decided to suck it up and make plans with that friend. However as I was getting ready, the perfect addition to my bleak self occurred...

Fall Out Boy is on an indefinite hiatus. There goes my childhood. There goes my ray of sunshine. There goes the music I could always count on to lend me a hand at the very furthest of my falls. Gone. Never to play another show or release another CD. I didn't, and still don't care who all hates them. If they do, so be it. I couldn't ever expect anyone to feel quite the way I do about them. Don't take this as me claiming to be their "nUmB3r OnE f4nn!!!121!!oneone!!1". I'm almost certain I'm not. But the main thing is, they helped me countless times. I can take just about every line from Take This To Your Grave songs and relate it to my life. If my memory were perfect, I could tell you a minimum of 20 times that 20 Dollar Nose Bleed has shown me light. Don't look at me like a drama queen. I already told you; I don't expect you to understand. That said, I cried and felt awful.

Shortly after, my friend came over. Yes, I looked like a mess. No, it didn't matter. I got decent and we headed out to embark on a bussing journey to a mall. Another tragic event; I saw someone who I used to be best friends with on that bus. That made me feel horrible. She really was a good person. It's truly a shame that things didn't work out with us.

Anyway, we made it to the mall and met up with another friend. That friend blew off a party and a plentiful amount of bad decisions that would have followed. I'm proud beyond belief. Anyway, it was a good time. I got over the tragedies and had a good time. Then, another friend and his friend joined us. It was kind of awkward, but oh well. I still liked it. GUESS WHAT HAPPENED THEN, READERS. Get ready for this, the plot will thicken once more. Someone who I used to consider a reasonably close friend was at the mall. I'm certain he saw me. Did he say hi? No. Of course not. He hates me. I should've known. Hooray for feeling the burning sensation of "FRIEND LOSS" once again. It wasn't pleasant. Eventually the mall closed, and I left with one friend to bus back to my house. We were listening to music, but then her ipod died. It was unfortunate, but we had some pretty cool conversations. Then, we arrived at our final destination as far as public transit goes.

Hot drinks from Tim Hortons in hand, we started walking to my house. Finally, I had the conversation I so needed. I discussed something in my life. It is so far from wonderful, but is undeniably a huge part of my life so far. I needed to talk about it, badly. Luckily, it was a very best friend who I was walking with. The friend who understands me to no end, always seems to be there at all the truly mandatory times and is an inspiration in so many ways. Discussing this with her was like discussing this with a diary or something, but even a hundred times better. She could relate so perfectly and didn't judge. Well, if she did I'm certain it was nothing lurid. In a nutshell, it was the best conversation I'd had in a while.

When I got home and she left, I then discussed something with another friend. Exploration of the theory of the universe, actually. It was moderately intense. I'm very glad about this. I've been hoping for quite a while now that he would turn out to be one of those friends who I can have such conversations with.

After this, I took a... risk. I started a conversation with someone who I'd always been much too afraid to speak to. He is honestly the most oppinionated student at my school. His intelligence is just striking. I bet he could even give quite a few teachers a run for their money. We discussed something else that I've been severely wanting to discuss. Whenever I spoke to anyone else about this, I was always getting the same answers. I now know that I can surely count on him for a different perspective with many reasons to back himself up. I'm quite thrilled about this. :)

My final analysis of this; my day has been quite contrasting. I woke up convinced today would be atrocious only to find that it's been very nice, as well as productive. I'm also realizing that 2010 is a great year. As I said to my friend, I'm finally collecting more important pieces to the puzzle of my life. I've been collecting since birth, but it seems that during 2009, I stopped looking. I dropped everything. 2010 is surely making up for this. It's filled with much more pleasant things, as well as lessons. Oh, lessons. I have all the friends a girl my age could ask for. Speaking of friends, don't be surprised if I post an entry about them all in the near future. I'm doing well in school, and becoming more thoroughly engrossed in the thing that interests me. I'm hoping to follow through with this. I just... like life. :) I don't ever want to return to the dark era where I didn't see this. It is not necessary or helpful for anyone. Oh gosh, I need to be ending this but now I'm wanting to further explore... Nope. This is it. Goodnight. :)

P.S. My entries's little clocks seem to be off. For the record, it's 2:20 AM of Sunday now.