Day 9: Two smileys that define your life right now.
1) :\
2) :NBCKJNBWDFJKRWE

I made up the second one, cause I'm reeeeeeeeaaaaaaaally creative.

Gah, I'm ready to fall asleep, but I'm so scared.
Once I fall asleep, morning will creep up on me, FAST. And once morning is here, I'll have to wake up... and get ready... and go back. To school.
All the gravol, tea and stress pills in the world wouldn't make me feel okay with this.
I was optimistic about it earlier, but who am I kidding?
I remember what it's like to be there, in a new semester.
I didn't come home crying everyday for two, maybe three months in semester one for my own personal entertainment. And same goes for semester two.

I'm going to be alone. I'm going to be miserable.
I'll write the most upsetting things in my fresh new notebook.
Notebooks, hah.
I'll walk through the halls, and into my classes, and feel so uncomfortable. I feel like everyone's staring at me, everyone's hating me, everyone's whispering, everyone's... just ugh.
I'll sit at lunch with friends, but my smile isn't genuine.
Fucking hell, maybe I'm being overdramatic, and maybe this year has room for change.

After all, why the fuck should I care about what some fudgepacking asslamps think about me?
I have friends, and I have music that tells me to spit in their fucking faces.
PthhhhhhhhhhhhhhhT.

I think I'll manage.