Hmhmhm, something bothered me a bit this week.

Myself and two friends were talking to STA's chaplain about Jason's death, because our former guidance counselor told us we should have her arrange a prayer or at least do something in memory of him, seeing as he graduated from STA. It turned into a pretty lengthy discussion and someone else who passed away in 2010 was mentioned. One of my friend's was talking about how when that person passed, Jason was who she talked to about it. She then for whatever reason felt she should add, that myself and the other friend with us didn't care when he passed, and even more, that we'd never lost anyone. That really, really pissed me off.

I've never lost anyone? FUCK YOU.
I LOST MY FUCKING FATHER. Is that not valid or something? And how about the fact that since his death, THAT ENTIRE SIDE OF MY FAMILY IS NO LONGER A PART OF MY LIFE? To the extent that they're strangers, and I might not even KNOW if some of them have died. I also lost both grandparents on my mom's side, and last year, my great uncle.
I know I shouldn't be angry, clearly she just didn't think before she spoke, but really... she better not actually be that fucking oblivious. Of course I've lost people.

And also, telling the chaplain we didn't care? I don't remember exactly how she worded it, but she made us out to be bad friends. I know she only said this with the thought of embracing the fact that Jason was a good friend, but she didn't need to put us down in the process. Said friend and I maybe weren't as supportive last summer as she would've liked, simply due to the fact that we didn't even know she was friends with the person who died. They met once, and weren't friends on facebook, meaning he wasn't someone she talked to regularly online or otherwise. But as soon as he died, she was talking about him being one of her closest friends and how inspired she was by him and all this stuff. To that friend and I, it just looks like she's blowing things out of proportion. I know all about death and loss and grieving and all that sad stuff, and I can see how she would be affected, but... jkndjkf. When he died, she didn't even TRY to talk to me about it once. Obviously I care, and I would have tried to help, if she wanted me to. It really bothers me that she would specifically speak such slander to someone who doesn't know me, thus allowing them to pass false judgement on me.

/rant over