my radness ran away and joined the circus.

How should I say, that I never wanted anything to change? If I rearrange the pieces of a broken down faith... do you believe in me? Because I'm not sure I believe in anything... anymore.

Pick up the pieces and make me understand.
Losing all demand, I've broken all my plans.
This year was a disaster.

What should I do, when I never thought anything would come true.
The solution for the broken down abuse...
I'm waiting for the fading floor to let me fall on through.
I'm getting closer to letting go of you.

What you don't know will only make this worse. I walked on the ledge. I saw the edge of my future.
Being held back by the past.
This year was a disaster.

fact: i didn't write this. sorry.

so many kids, but i only see you...

and I don't think you notice me. I'm not the way you think I am.

HELLO OUT THEREEE.
I tried to post yesterday. I really did, but it didn't work.
So I'll post about Monday, because I'm feeling talky.
Okayokayokay, so... wait, no. I did post about Monday...
It's Tuesday I'm missing. I'm all mixed up, haha.
Tuesday... OH, IT WAS OFF UNIFORM DAY.
Right. Right. Off uniform. I enjoy off uniform. I wore a purple tutu? :D
I also got made fun of, a little worse than usual. But that's okay, because they're just ignorant little badwords.
And, I learned more of Blackbird. I am so unbelievably slow, but I'm GETTING THERE, okay?

Today, being Wednesday, wasn't much to talk about.
I'm still pretty much the lamest child in life.
But hey, a brave smile and some texts from Rachel get me through the day, so oh well.

-

I want to pull a Noelle.

hahahaha.

mandy quit failing.
be better.

i don't know

I want to post, I want to let things out.
But I can't.
I can't, I can't, I can't.
I can't talk about it.
I can't get lost in my memories I have, and the memories I lack.
I can't, I can't, I can't.

She doesn't feel, she doesn't feel, she doesn't feel.

i won't let you fall away from me.

Dearest My Darling Blogspot,
Today was a pretty great day. Geography was the ordinary, except it was slightly worse because I didn't have the beautiful gift of music streaming through my ears. I mean, who doesn't like to listen to Jimmy Urine reminding them not to talk about my fucking boyfriend, whilst trying to list some grid coordinates? I like it...
Religion was slightly different than usual though, because somebody actually said hi to me. Well, I think they did. I'm 90% sure they did. Because they looked at me, and they're mouth opened, and a noise came out that resembled the word "hi". I mean, I could be wrong. Anywho, I tried to utter a "hello" back. I'm not too sure if they heard it, but oh well. Oh, and when they walked away, I most definitely did not pull out my trusty notebook and start doodling and writing failurelike poetry about how amazing it is to be acknowledged. No sir, I most definitely did not. Not me, Mandy, in room 120something at approximately 9:28 am. (:
Uhh. Lunch was cool. Korrin has fun ways of eating things.
Music... ehh, music. I don't like music very much. But drama is coming up. I'm looking forward to this.
Math... math was better. I have a test on Wednesday, and I might actually throw together a 70. Or at least a 60 would be cool.
Haha. Uhhh. I hung out with a sexilicious chicken tonight. It was pretty great. And I have a new goal? I must say hi to The Dark Knight or The Sorcerer (preferably both) sometime THIS WEEK. No. That's a high expectation. That, or...
I don't want to post about this anymore.

I have math homework to do now. Oh, guess what? I started getting ready for school at 1am this morning. I know, I know, I am just so totally boss, thank you.
I neeeeeeeeeeeed sleep. But I am not going to acquire it, because sleep is for the weak.
Party till you pass out, drink till your dead. Dance all night till you can't feel your legs. (y)
HALLELUJAH FOR MANDY HAVING A SOCIAL LIFE THIS WEEKEND.

Seriously, I'm going to do that math homework now...

Goodbye.

Hello there.
Today, I saw Zombieland. An amazing movie, it truly was.
My friends screamed. I laughed hysterically.
:D
Oh, and yay for meeting new people? (y)

Uhh... there's nothing I really want to talk about tonight.
That said, have a safe evening. Those are so hard to come by these days.

Goodnight.