WARNING: this entry has a horrible flow to it.
Today, my friend and I walked around the mall with a sign that said "FREE HUGS". I won't go into detail about it. It was just really interesting, and I think I'll be wanting to do that again some day. I never really realized how much I actually love most hugs.
I have a really sick feeling inside of me right now. It's all too familiar. It happens all the time. I want to know you. I can't let you know me. I have another day of school tomorrow. School is not something I enjoy. There are too many people who... I just can't talk to. I don't know why. I have the words planned out, perfectly placed inside my head. It's not such a difficult task. Well, it shouldn't be. I can't open my mouth. If I do, it's just to bite my lip. I can't talk to you, I can't talk to you, I can't talk to you, I WANT TO TALK TO YOU. Speak Mandy, SPEAK! My desperate pleas against myself are useless. I never win this constant battle. You're not all so intimidating, are you? What's the worst you could do to me? You won't find any blackmail on me; I'm a good person. You can say the most cruel of things to me; they're either not true, or I'm already aware of them. You could even try physical abuse, but that pain won't stay forever. So why is it I can't seem to say the words? You're most likely a very interesting person, who I'd really enjoy getting to know. Not that you would ever know that.
I'm losing my focus, I'd better stop this.
Goodbye.
Hopefully my next entry will be a better one.
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