Sleeping, Y U NO HAPPEN NO MOAR?
Lie, I'm sure it'll happen soon.
I wish I could just be an insomniac, and never sleep again.
Even if Fight Club tells me that when you have insomnia you're never really awake and you're never really asleep.
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Or maybe I wish I could just sleep all the time.

Or maybe I use sleeping or lackthere of to hide from life.
I used to think, "fightlifewithlife".
Now I don't care.

I just want change.

GOOD CHANGE, DAMMIT.

I want to listen to Taking Back Sunday all night.
I want everything to be like grade 6 and 7, when no matter how bad everything got, I could always go home, and lay in my bed with Taking Back Sunday blaring from my stereo. And that would make it better. It always would. Sometimes it would take 3 minutes, and sometimes it would take 2 hours.

What makes it all better now?
I don't actually know, because I normally just go to sleep when things get bad.
Except for when I can't sleep, then I don't know what I do.

I just want change.
GOOD CHANGE, DAMMIT.

Maybe if I keep saying that, it'll happen.
nfdsjdkfnkjf, I feel randomly anxious, and I feel uncomfortable blogging about this. I don't want to portray someone who is depressed all the time because I'm
not.
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I just-

Nevermind. Homework.

Maybe things aren't so bad. I think I'll try to make a list of things that make me happy in a bit. Cause then I can be happy. Like any human being is supposed to be.