H'okay, so I've felt extremely crappy for the past week or so because I'm afraid to let go of 2010. It's honestly been such an amazing year...
I've made a few friends, gotten closer to people, went to tonsss of really good shows- Warped Tour included ohmygodjkfnsjkf, tried some new things, found about so much new music, and had some really fucking fun days.

I love this year.

But I suppose I'm finally ready to let it go, cause that's just what you do.

I think there's going to be a ton of changes in 2011, which just makes it even scarier, but I'm definitely ready.

I remember last New Year's Eve... I was at a house full of people from my school who I didn't know very well at all. I was awkward, but I tried my best to socialize, and I think I did an okay job. Korrin was there (and Emily wasn't, shocker) which was nice. I was with her the entire time, and it was nice spending time with just her. Actually, another bonus was that Emily wasn't there. I luhh her and all, but it's nice not blending into the person next to me, and getting to just be Mandy for once. Back on topic, I talked to a handful of new people that night, and Levi spared me some words of wisdom. By the time we were counting down, everything felt wonderful. I felt included, and accepted, and it was a great atmosphere. I went from being almost too scared to get out of Marcus' car, to wishing I could stay longer. That's one of the best feelings in the world, by the way. The only sad thing was that I said barely a word to Jared, who was kind of hanging out alone all night. But, I eventually made up for it, so whatever.

I wish there had been a party like that for tonight. But no, because now certain friends are self-proclaimed stoned lesbians who wheel guys anyway and would hate to be sober, and about a billion other issues of friendships falling apart, people drifting, blahblahblah. These holidays are not what I would've hoped for, but I still really appreciate and enjoy them nonetheless.

So tonight calls for many laughs with my bffl, so wew. c:

...I'm gonna go finish getting ready so I can try to be on time for once. Byebye blogger, see you in the new year.