Typical.

Of COURSE, you would say that.
Of COURSE, you would do that.
Of COURSE, that would happen.
Of COURSE, it would be during this time.
Of COURSE, we would relive this.
Of COURSE, the possibility is met again.
Of COURSE, old lessons are forgotten.
Of COURSE, we make the same mistakes.
Of COURSE, I would post this in my blog.
Of COURSE, it would be irrelevant.
Of COURSE, my itunes shuffle would have such a song play at such a time.

Irony, I so loathe you.

Uh. I could almost feel guilty. I do feel guilty.
Who did I always talk to about stuff like this? I talked to you.
I'm not sure it helped, but it was something.

Disregard me. I'm in my typical state of post-angst, before the stomach acid sets in. Then I get all distrait, and nothing makes sense anymore.

Fuck. Night.

all i need is arts and crafts.

Hello.
I haven't actually blogged in a bit, so I guess I'll do that.

I don't really know what to tell you about Monday and Tuesday. I was sick, and tired, and verging miserable, and I slept through my religion ISP. That wasn't wise at all.
Wednesday I stayed home sick. I was in need of a schoolless school day.

Last night I couldn't sleep, so I was up till 1:30. Although, I started getting ready then, and therefore had barely anything to do to get ready when I awoke just after 6. I even had time to make tea. :D I still adore tea. I got to school lovely-ly. But... my real friends weren't at school. That sounds mean. "Real friends". I was still with a group of people. They're all people I can call friends. But, I can't let them in, and I can't completely be myself around them, and I'm not too sure how much they really care, and I'm aware this is a run on sentence. So I felt horrible. I went to Geography and then left to get my admit slip. I took the long route all everywhere upstairs then across the entire main floor to get to Attendance office. Mostly because I really felt horrible. I was fighting back tears. Codependant? Maybe just a little bit. Anyway, I survived the rest of geography, unheard and unseen and not really caring either way.

BUT THEN :D
Turns out at least Emily was in fact at school. My day got about 30% better when I saw her. I worked hard on my Religion ISP and it's nearing completion. That's incredibly good seeing as I've only been present and conscious for 1.7 of the 4 classes we've been given so far. I then walked Emily to her next class, and saw my other friend was in fact at school. She's the one I eat lunch with. Well, her and other people. But she's the main person. :)

Um, during drama we watched auditions for some Christmas thingy my school is doing. Turns out, there's more wonderful people at my school than I thought. I was in awe. Oh, and drama has actually been progressively getting better. I've done my fair share of tableaus in front of my class, and I'm not afraid to talk to just about anyone in that class now. GOOD.

Math, I was late. My teacher usually gives detentions to those who are late... but she didn't say a word when I came in. Then she gave out candy canes and pencils. I was in shock. Delighted shock.

My day ended it's usual way. I went home and drank tea. Today has been good.

In other news, I've started drawing again. I'm so glad I've finally refound inspiration. It's a great feeling; looking at something you've created and actually liking it. Also, I got invited to a New Years Party. Huzzah, it's a social life! See? I'm not always a failure.

Two semi anonymous things to lead me to a conclusion:

Someone who I was almost certain was losing a lot of interest and care for me just showed me how completely wrong I was to think that. Although they're going through a hard time right now, I can't help but be a little bit happy they haven't let go. Now that I know where they really stand, I'll do everything I can to be the friend I once was to them. ^_______^

I don't know why, but I absolutely adore you. I have a great quantity of respect for you, too. It's really weird. You're not normally someone I would think so highly of, but really, you're wonderful. I'm glad I know you. ^____^

Happy faces are happy.
I've got a great bunch of friends. As long as I have them, I know I'll make it through.

PARDON CHEESYNESS AND POOR WRITING SKILLS,
It's been a while, alright?

Goodnight.

but the NUNS are watching...

I kind of just want to erase you.
I don't mean like that... like making you not exist... like taking an eraser to your face and... y'know... erasing you.
FEeling numb has never felt so fulfilling.
Yes, I am aware of the unecessary capitalized E up there. I just like it there. But this sentence makes it seem

redundant,
like most of this has been.

We're okay, goodbye.

simple enough.

(I have seen sinking ships)
This is side one,
(go down with more grace than you)
Flip me over,
(You can thank your lucky stars)
I know I'm not your favourite record.
(everything I ask for)
But the songs you grow to like
(will never come true.)
never stick at first.

So I'm writing you a chorus, and here is your verse.

Oh hello.
Let's blog, okay?
Let's start with last night. I stayed up later than intended, and woke up almost every hour. I finally got up at 5:30 and got ready and stuff.
I didn't look horrible today :3
Umm... the morning was nice. I was... acceptable in social society. That's a horribley formed sentence. In geography, we just watched Spiderman 3. I LOVE the Spiderman movies. Really.
Religion was whatever. Fine. Lunch was cool. I was social, and Nicole skipped. :D
Drama was good. Patrick and I debated things? I guess we're cool.
Oh, I forgot math. Screw math, it's not interesting.
I don't know, it was just a good school day though, when I was so sure it wouldn't be.
I went home. My brother's friend is over. He's on the level though.
I got dressed up, complete with a dress and everything, then went to a tea party at Emily's. I met a really incredible Jeffree Star look alike. He was also completely baked, and out of his mind. Fun stuff. Fun stories. My throat burns from inhaling and exhaling pizza.
Haha, whaaat?
I don't know.
I don't feel like going in to detail about everything.
But my day has been really, REALLY wonderful.
I love weekends.

Bye.

weekend warriors, and our best friends..

HELLO.
Today hasn't been the greatest. Actually, it hasn't been great at all. But I'm not feeling too down.
Uhh... I didn't wake up til 7 this morning... because my brother didn't wake up til 7... and I'm not self reliant... so I walked to school. Gross. It was icy, and I kept falling. Damn.
Religion was good. We did stuff about... ourselves... which I can do... and we learned chinese numbers too... cool, I guess.
This week the schedule is all messed up. Period 6 becomes period 3, and THEN period 3, 4 and 5 happen. So if you have 5th lunch, you could leave at 1:30 if you want.
Except I have 3rd lunch. No getting out early for me, no sir.
So, after Releyegon, I went to Math. Math in the morning is not good. No sir, not good at all. I can never stay awake during my morning classes, and Math is the one class I'm not doing amazingly in. Though, I'm doing a bit better. Anyway, it passed by slowly and mockingly. We had a substitute. I don't like her.
Then, I had lunch. Lunch sucked. Enough said.
Then I went to Drama, my last class of the day. It wasn't much better.
We got out early... I sat with "friends". I failed hardcore.
I went home. I felt like crap. But sometimes people can make things better, even if just for seven minutes.

Oh well.

Um... let's end this with something optimistic... for once...

the writers weren't kidding, but the good things will live in our hearts?
yeah, the academy is...