All this new stuff that I've been doing lately- i.e. drinking, dancing, socializing, etc?
Yeah, I wish I were doing it all with you by my side.
Mlah.
Saturday, April 30, 2011
Thursday, April 28, 2011
I am a Jew.
Hath not a Jew eyes?
Hath not a Jew hands, organs, dimensions, senses, affections, passions?
Fed with the same food, hurt with the same weapons, subject to the same diseases, healed by the same means, warmed and cooled by the same winter and summer, as a Christian is?
If you prick us, do we not bleed? If you tickle us, do we not laugh? If you poison us, do we not... die?
And if you wrong us, shall we not revenge?
If we are like you in the rest, we will resemble you in that.
If a Jew wrong a Christian, what is his humility? Revenge!
Hath not a Jew eyes?
Hath not a Jew hands, organs, dimensions, senses, affections, passions?
Fed with the same food, hurt with the same weapons, subject to the same diseases, healed by the same means, warmed and cooled by the same winter and summer, as a Christian is?
If you prick us, do we not bleed? If you tickle us, do we not laugh? If you poison us, do we not... die?
And if you wrong us, shall we not revenge?
If we are like you in the rest, we will resemble you in that.
If a Jew wrong a Christian, what is his humility? Revenge!
Monday, April 25, 2011
Last night was really fun, by the way. I danced all night and stayed out till 3am then cuddled with Kristin. Yeah.
I still feel so fkdnfkjd. I have an english project due tomorrow that I haven't started, a ton of english questions, I need to figure out what I'm wearing for off uniform, I need sleep, and I really want tea. But I kinda just feel like laying in bed and crying, but I don't have time for that.
fljkdfdsj I need to do things this week.
I wish I still had my coffee buddy. Fucking guh.
I still feel so fkdnfkjd. I have an english project due tomorrow that I haven't started, a ton of english questions, I need to figure out what I'm wearing for off uniform, I need sleep, and I really want tea. But I kinda just feel like laying in bed and crying, but I don't have time for that.
fljkdfdsj I need to do things this week.
I wish I still had my coffee buddy. Fucking guh.
Sunday, April 24, 2011
Saturday, April 23, 2011
Wednesday, April 20, 2011
Hgggg, life lately.
I felt good for a few weeks but this one just isn't doing it.
I wish I could cry. I've come to realize that I feel a lot better when I cry, mainly because I spend such a large portion of my life being poker face. Or... strangely happy. Like I'm high on life at the time but it's short lived, because by the next morning I feel like shit again. I don't want short lived happiness. I didn't always have short lived happiness, I used to be happy all the time. Now I just... I don't know. I need a breath of fresh air.
It feels like things just keep piling up. I feel crushed, but not properly because I'm still walking around with my head up and smiling every now and then. It'd just be so much better to cry about this. I want strong emotion.
I'm still trying to improve my life and shit, though this week's been a failure.
I think tomorrow I'll go somewhere after school and take some time to myself. I just want to be alone, go to a few good places, clear my mind and get some fresh air.
I want to be happy for Friday, and particularly Sunday. I need to get it together.
I don't even know.
This is so ridiculously difficult. There's so much going on and I feel truly isolated right now. Like, I have a handful of people I could talk to, but I know it wouldn't help. These people cannot possibly understand it to the degree I'm looking for. They don't know what it's like, they're not living through this. It won't help to get it off my chest, I know this for a fact.
I just don't know what to do.
There was one person who once understood it. I could talk to that person about it for a very lengthy chunk of time and feel fresh and relieved afterwards. Unfortunately, they're no longer around.
So I'll just sit here in my sorrow and be lonely.
I hope I can fix things tomorrow.
I felt good for a few weeks but this one just isn't doing it.
I wish I could cry. I've come to realize that I feel a lot better when I cry, mainly because I spend such a large portion of my life being poker face. Or... strangely happy. Like I'm high on life at the time but it's short lived, because by the next morning I feel like shit again. I don't want short lived happiness. I didn't always have short lived happiness, I used to be happy all the time. Now I just... I don't know. I need a breath of fresh air.
It feels like things just keep piling up. I feel crushed, but not properly because I'm still walking around with my head up and smiling every now and then. It'd just be so much better to cry about this. I want strong emotion.
I'm still trying to improve my life and shit, though this week's been a failure.
I think tomorrow I'll go somewhere after school and take some time to myself. I just want to be alone, go to a few good places, clear my mind and get some fresh air.
I want to be happy for Friday, and particularly Sunday. I need to get it together.
I don't even know.
This is so ridiculously difficult. There's so much going on and I feel truly isolated right now. Like, I have a handful of people I could talk to, but I know it wouldn't help. These people cannot possibly understand it to the degree I'm looking for. They don't know what it's like, they're not living through this. It won't help to get it off my chest, I know this for a fact.
I just don't know what to do.
There was one person who once understood it. I could talk to that person about it for a very lengthy chunk of time and feel fresh and relieved afterwards. Unfortunately, they're no longer around.
So I'll just sit here in my sorrow and be lonely.
I hope I can fix things tomorrow.
Monday, April 18, 2011
Doing this all right here, right now cause my english homework can suck cocks in hell
day 01 - your favorite song
I think This Photograph Is Proof by taking back sunday is forever my favourite. It has been since grade 5, so.
day 02 - your least favorite song
Fuck... anything by rihannah. Like a G6. Half the shit on muchmusic.
day 03 - a song that makes you happy
This is hard to do without my ipod present. Wow, I can get sexual too by say anything.
day 04 - a song that makes you sad
Fuck it, getting my ipod. Okay.
fighting for nothing - meg & dia
day 05 - a song that reminds you of someone
always - blink 182
day 06 - a song that reminds you of somewhere
FRIDAY - REBECCA BLACK, BBY. It reminds me of a lot of places
day 07 - a song that reminds you of a certain event
dogs can grow beards all over - the devil wears prada
day 08 - a song that you know all the words to
roads that never end and views that never cease - we came as romans
day 09 - a song that you can dance to
well, i can mosh to 2nd sucks - adtr. does that count?
day 10 - a song that makes you fall asleep
impossible, nothing "makes" me fall asleep.
day 11 - a song from your favorite band
let's pretend i have a favourite band and it's say anything.
every man has a molly - say anything
day 12 - a song from a band you hate
fuckin', photograph - nickelback
day 13 - a song that is a guilty pleasure
caraphernelia - penis the veil
day 14 - a song that no one would expect you to love
uuum, i like some kelly clarkson songs. hahah
day 15 - a song that describes you
LITTLE GIRLS - SAY ANYTHING
or, y'know, hate everyone
day 16 - a song that you used to love but now hate
chelsea smile - bring me the horizon
day 17 - a song that you hear often on the radio
i don't listen to the radio.
day 18 - a song that you wish you heard on the radio
^
day 19 - a song from your favorite album
ooh... i can't pick a favourite album. i just can't.
day 20 - a song that you listen to when you’re angry
2nd sucks - adtr
day 21 - a song that you listen to when you’re happy
zzzonked - enter shikari
day 22 - a song that you listen to when you’re sad
bring me home - the morning of, everything must go - tbs live from orensanz
day 23 - a song that you want to play at your wedding
NEVER GETTING MARRIED, IDGAF.
day 24 - a song that you want to play at your funeral
friday - rebecca black. no, idk. i can't pick songs to play at huge events like this one and the above.
day 25 - a song that makes you laugh
baby i got your money - say anything
day 26 - a song that you can play on an instrument
i just laugh - nevershoutnever
day 27 - a song that you wish you could play
all i want - adtr OHWAIT I'M LEARNING IT
day 28 - a song that makes you feel guilty
all you did was save my life - our lady peace
day 29 - a song from your childhood
i write sins not tragedies - panic at the disco
day 30 - your favorite song at this time last year
lights out - mindless self indulgence
WELL THAT WAS A SUPER FUN WAY TO SPEND MY TIME, WEEEEEEW
I'M GONNA GO ANOTHER CAUSE I HAVE NO LIFE.
my poor blog will be covered in this shit. sorry pretty blog.
1. Five basic facts about you.
2. Five not-so-basic facts about you.
3. Five ways you break the ice.
4. Five signs that you’re into someone.
5. Five signs that you’re NOT into someone.
6. Five things you do when you’re bored.
7. Five things that make you hyper.
8. Five things you’re known for.
9. Five things you want to do.
10. Five things you’ll never do.
11. Five good things about you.
12. Five bad things about you.
13. Five ways to make you cry.
14. Five ways to win your heart.
15. Five things you need to say.
1. a) I'm 5'8. b) I have blue eyes with some brownish in them. c) I go to slut training academy. d) I can be extremely shy and awkward. e) I like music. Derp.
2. a) I'm self conscious of my toes. b) I fucking love throwing down. c) I don't do weed, but I couldn't care less if you do. PEOPLEALWAYSGETTHATWRONGUGH d) I'll rip you a new asshole if you call me Amanda. I think it's extremely disrespectful. e) I like spontaneity and impulsive decisions. Planning sucks.
3. a) Talk to me, but not with some cocky attitude that'll make me think you're just making fun of me. b) Smile, but only if it's genuine. c) Talk about music. d) Shyness is cool too. e) Just be yourself and whatever.
4. a) I look you in the eyes for long periods of time when I'm smiling/laughing at something you said. b) I talk about the most random shit. c) I say "that's cute". d) I make eye contact a lot, but also randomly look away. e) I ask plenty of questions.
5. a) I'll say something that specifically refers to us being FRIENDS. b) I randomly stop replying if it's not in person. c) I zone out and don't say a whole lot if it's in person. d) I won't hear everything you're saying. e) It's pretty obvious...
6. a) tumblr b) blogging c) reading d) sleeping e) online shopping
7. a) new people b) energy drinks c) korrin degraw d) walking around at night e) spontaneity
8. a) being awkward/"weird" b) not talking c) being a lesbo d) being a stoner e) sleeping in class
9. a) achieve certain goals b) paint c) improve drawing skills d) be happy e) get my hands on a time machine
10. a) break a promise b) cheat c) hard drugs, i assume d) drop out of high school e) abuse a child, despite anything i might say otherwise x)
11. a) I care a lot about people b) I'm helpful c) I'm not judgemental, contrary to popular belief d) I don't start shit with people e) I've met Rob
12. a) I don't open up b) I avoid people c) I'm always late d) Sometimes I'm a bit too sarcastic e) I think bad thoughts about people when I'm angry
13. a) YOU CAN'T MAKE ME CRY, I'M A MACHINE b) dump me in tim hortons without good reason after 8.5 months c) inform me that someone i cared deeply for died d) lie to me e) tell me an insult that hits home. but b + c are the only ones i'd cry in public about.
14. I don't feel like answering this
15. Or this one
KAY BYE
day 01 - your favorite song
I think This Photograph Is Proof by taking back sunday is forever my favourite. It has been since grade 5, so.
day 02 - your least favorite song
Fuck... anything by rihannah. Like a G6. Half the shit on muchmusic.
day 03 - a song that makes you happy
This is hard to do without my ipod present. Wow, I can get sexual too by say anything.
day 04 - a song that makes you sad
Fuck it, getting my ipod. Okay.
fighting for nothing - meg & dia
day 05 - a song that reminds you of someone
always - blink 182
day 06 - a song that reminds you of somewhere
FRIDAY - REBECCA BLACK, BBY. It reminds me of a lot of places
day 07 - a song that reminds you of a certain event
dogs can grow beards all over - the devil wears prada
day 08 - a song that you know all the words to
roads that never end and views that never cease - we came as romans
day 09 - a song that you can dance to
well, i can mosh to 2nd sucks - adtr. does that count?
day 10 - a song that makes you fall asleep
impossible, nothing "makes" me fall asleep.
day 11 - a song from your favorite band
let's pretend i have a favourite band and it's say anything.
every man has a molly - say anything
day 12 - a song from a band you hate
fuckin', photograph - nickelback
day 13 - a song that is a guilty pleasure
caraphernelia - penis the veil
day 14 - a song that no one would expect you to love
uuum, i like some kelly clarkson songs. hahah
day 15 - a song that describes you
LITTLE GIRLS - SAY ANYTHING
or, y'know, hate everyone
day 16 - a song that you used to love but now hate
chelsea smile - bring me the horizon
day 17 - a song that you hear often on the radio
i don't listen to the radio.
day 18 - a song that you wish you heard on the radio
^
day 19 - a song from your favorite album
ooh... i can't pick a favourite album. i just can't.
day 20 - a song that you listen to when you’re angry
2nd sucks - adtr
day 21 - a song that you listen to when you’re happy
zzzonked - enter shikari
day 22 - a song that you listen to when you’re sad
bring me home - the morning of, everything must go - tbs live from orensanz
day 23 - a song that you want to play at your wedding
NEVER GETTING MARRIED, IDGAF.
day 24 - a song that you want to play at your funeral
friday - rebecca black. no, idk. i can't pick songs to play at huge events like this one and the above.
day 25 - a song that makes you laugh
baby i got your money - say anything
day 26 - a song that you can play on an instrument
i just laugh - nevershoutnever
day 27 - a song that you wish you could play
all i want - adtr OHWAIT I'M LEARNING IT
day 28 - a song that makes you feel guilty
all you did was save my life - our lady peace
day 29 - a song from your childhood
i write sins not tragedies - panic at the disco
day 30 - your favorite song at this time last year
lights out - mindless self indulgence
WELL THAT WAS A SUPER FUN WAY TO SPEND MY TIME, WEEEEEEW
I'M GONNA GO ANOTHER CAUSE I HAVE NO LIFE.
my poor blog will be covered in this shit. sorry pretty blog.
1. Five basic facts about you.
2. Five not-so-basic facts about you.
3. Five ways you break the ice.
4. Five signs that you’re into someone.
5. Five signs that you’re NOT into someone.
6. Five things you do when you’re bored.
7. Five things that make you hyper.
8. Five things you’re known for.
9. Five things you want to do.
10. Five things you’ll never do.
11. Five good things about you.
12. Five bad things about you.
13. Five ways to make you cry.
14. Five ways to win your heart.
15. Five things you need to say.
1. a) I'm 5'8. b) I have blue eyes with some brownish in them. c) I go to slut training academy. d) I can be extremely shy and awkward. e) I like music. Derp.
2. a) I'm self conscious of my toes. b) I fucking love throwing down. c) I don't do weed, but I couldn't care less if you do. PEOPLEALWAYSGETTHATWRONGUGH d) I'll rip you a new asshole if you call me Amanda. I think it's extremely disrespectful. e) I like spontaneity and impulsive decisions. Planning sucks.
3. a) Talk to me, but not with some cocky attitude that'll make me think you're just making fun of me. b) Smile, but only if it's genuine. c) Talk about music. d) Shyness is cool too. e) Just be yourself and whatever.
4. a) I look you in the eyes for long periods of time when I'm smiling/laughing at something you said. b) I talk about the most random shit. c) I say "that's cute". d) I make eye contact a lot, but also randomly look away. e) I ask plenty of questions.
5. a) I'll say something that specifically refers to us being FRIENDS. b) I randomly stop replying if it's not in person. c) I zone out and don't say a whole lot if it's in person. d) I won't hear everything you're saying. e) It's pretty obvious...
6. a) tumblr b) blogging c) reading d) sleeping e) online shopping
7. a) new people b) energy drinks c) korrin degraw d) walking around at night e) spontaneity
8. a) being awkward/"weird" b) not talking c) being a lesbo d) being a stoner e) sleeping in class
9. a) achieve certain goals b) paint c) improve drawing skills d) be happy e) get my hands on a time machine
10. a) break a promise b) cheat c) hard drugs, i assume d) drop out of high school e) abuse a child, despite anything i might say otherwise x)
11. a) I care a lot about people b) I'm helpful c) I'm not judgemental, contrary to popular belief d) I don't start shit with people e) I've met Rob
12. a) I don't open up b) I avoid people c) I'm always late d) Sometimes I'm a bit too sarcastic e) I think bad thoughts about people when I'm angry
13. a) YOU CAN'T MAKE ME CRY, I'M A MACHINE b) dump me in tim hortons without good reason after 8.5 months c) inform me that someone i cared deeply for died d) lie to me e) tell me an insult that hits home. but b + c are the only ones i'd cry in public about.
14. I don't feel like answering this
15. Or this one
KAY BYE
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