and now I'm in a crappy mood because sometimes things just don't go as planned and sometimes people really, really suck and everything is just the most pointless thing and I can't stand people, I just can't. this leads me to a verdict of "fuck everything, I don't care, I want to hibernate in my bed all night and maybe watch tv with my mom or something, I just don't want to go out, I don't want to see people, I just want to sulk in my misery because that's just how it's meant to be, so why bother" or something like that.

but nope.
I'm gonna fucking go to lavish and have a good fucking night. There is a good chance I'll have a bit more fun going out rather than sulking at home alone, so I guess I may as well. I really hope everything's worth it and I have a good night.