Hello there.
It has to be said... 2010!
I pressed cap locks, even though there's no letters in 2010.


I'll tell you about the party I went to, because I don't want to forget it. :)

So, first things first, in the previous entry where I said how stoked I was... LIE. All day I had been an anxious mess on the inside. Then Marcus came to drive me there, and I was really freaking out. So what did I do? I kept thinking "easy peasy pumpkin pie, motherfucker". Gerard said that once... for some reason, I find it helpful. Kind of strange, but whatever. Anyway, I got there 10 minutes later than I thought because we had trouble finding the house, which I was glad. But then we found it, and I was a very scared little girl. He pulled into the driveway, and I just sat there and said "I don't want to go..."

THEN. A bunch of people came running outside to see who was there? That was my chance. I said bye and got out of the car, swarmed by my acquantainces, and some new faces. Hugs, too. So, I was introduced, and then we went upstairs. Awkward, but bearable. Then outside. Snowball fights and snowmen? It was fun. Then inside. Then Korrin came. My little saviour. I played the role of static cling for a while. The party branched off into clicks a bit, but I didn't mind. Too many people can make for unneeded chaos. Oh well. It was fun. At one point, I even ended up in the closet, lights off, with Korrin and two others? I think it was still pretty cool. 10 o'clock was when things pulled themselves together. The clicks all got together (except for the one I was with) and watched a sing a long movie. Cute. I chatted with Alyssia and Jamie, while Korrin worked out some issues. Oh, and I played Kerplunk too. It's not my forte. Then Korrin and Sky joined us, and slowly, so did everyone else, in the dungeonlike basement. We all sat around in a big jolly circle (with two exceptions) and just... were being epic, discussing 2009 and 2010. It was good. Then we counted down the seconds and, y'know. Yelled and jumped and hugged. Then we toasted (non-alcholic :]) and got a group photo. Then- my favourite part of the evening- I conversed with someone. They told me something that many people are constantly telling me the exact opposite of. We had a really good conversation, and he really enlightened me. I can't even quite fathom how... great it was? You wouldn't know. Also, I spoke to someone I'd never spoken to before. Then, I sat in a not so round circle, and talked a bit, but mostly just pondered what I'd just been told. I was also realizing how much I'd fail to pay much attention to a newer friend of mine. I feel pretty horrible about that. So then I went to go find Korrin and Sky. My evening ended hanging around in Veronika's room, and saying goodbye to people.

This entry will fail to mention how glad I really am that I attended. The content feeling I have about all of this is... well, it's a feeling. Words won't capture it, but I know I won't forget it.

Oh, and I have two resolutions? The first one, you'll never know. The second one, is to not feel like a failure if number one falls through. It's okay to fail. Both are going extremely well, so far.


That's enough for tonight. Goodnight. :)

I LOST THIS ENTRY THEN FOUND IT. YAY.