I'm still not sleeping.

Hey there. My day has been bipolar. I'll fill you in.
So, first I woke up on time and everything. Got ready. Went to school. Drank coffee. Was social. Typical good morning. Geography consisted of The Santa Clause. In between Geography and Religion things got bad. Real bad. Really, really bad. Not gonna say what it was. So I was fighting back tears during the ten minutes of Religion. Then we had our Christmas assembly. I forced myself to make small talk. I wonder if it was obvious how not okay I was. Whatever. I sat down with some really amazing people, who I'm somehow luckily acquainted with. But that's when I couldn't keep it together anymore. I was shaking as bad as I always did in 8th grade. I cried. A lot. It was horrible. No one noticed though. Except for one thing. It was really nice how much she cared, so I decided to get my act together and tack on that fake smile of mine. I lied to her though. Not good. I lied to her and said I was fine. I wasn't.
The assembly ended, and I went back to class. I took deep breaths and watched our school's FNN. It was good. Really funny. Well done, school.
Then I went to lunch. Majority of my friends went to another friends' house. I was invited too, but I didn't feel like going, so I hung out with two friends. Then, as previously decided I said "Fuck it, I'm skipping" and well... skipped. During fourth lunch I hung out with Emily and a new friend. He's rad. I also hung around some other kids for a bit. Then fourth lunch ended and I'm all "OH NO I HAVE NO FRIENDS I FAIL" but then Mr Rad Friend Person said I could hang out with him. Yay for not being a loner for 45 minutes. So I hung out with him and a bunch of grade 12's who I don't really know. It was good. Then I went home with Emily, and Nicole came too. My crappy feelings returned, but instead I decided to write them on my arm instead of have a freak out. Yay.

Then we went to a concert. Things got bad. Really, really bad. I ran outside and cried for half an hour. Then I cried inside for another half hour. Then I realized how lucky I really am, and how spectacular my friends really are. I love them so much, you can't even imagine. I need to show my thanks! I said thanks... I guess all I can do is be amazing to them. I NEED SLEEP.

vfsmacedankdndrb.