I disgust myself.
I came home super excited for the weekend, tried on the outfit I was planning on wearing to lavish, liked it a fair bit then continued about, being all happy and excited. And maybe, for once, not quite feeling like the ugliest thing on earth. My mood was probably an 8.5/10 on the happy scale which is pretty darn high, especially for me.
Then I tried to take pictures of said outfit to show Korrin to get her opinion on whether or not it actually looks good. I spent about an hour trying to take just one good picture but every single one was like a slap across the face. I realized I absolutely hate myself and am in fact the ugliest thing on earth, then almost cried. I probably sound like a 10 year old. But yeah, I guess I'm not wearing that outfit to lavish after all.
Now my mood feels like a 4/10 and I can't even look at myself. I hate myself. I hate the way I look. I've never seen anyone uglier. I have a date with a really awesome guy tomorrow, and he's texting me about it, being all sweet and awesome but all I can think is "I don't even want to go now, he's going to take one look at me and puke because I'm too ugly and no where near good enough".

I'm going to take a nap now, before I start crying like a baby.