I am going to a party tonight, and for once, I'm not sure I really want to. It's probably going to be mostly high school people which I don't particularly like, though unfortunately I am one. I don't know why I want to go and be surrounded by mediocre people and drink and smoke as much as them (if not more) mostly so I can get up the nerve to socialize. In theory, that makes no sense at all.
However, I have no other plans therefore said party must be better than being sad and alone on a Saturday night.
This week has been okay. I really need to figure out a way to stay awake during period 2, it's getting embarrassing.
Yesterday, I hung out with a new friend from school. It was pretty fun. We basically just walked around, talked and did a bunch of nothing. I like hanging out with him. I feel like I can actually be myself and generally don't need to worry about much. He seems really honest too, and I like it when he can actually open up about things. I like that when I'm with him, we don't smoke weed or anything. I'm sick of only having things in common with people when we're both under the influence.
I guess what I'm saying is, I miss having fun with people in a sober state of mind.
My favourite days were the ones spent sober, anyway. They were the times bffl had a bunch of friends over at his house, days in grade 9, history classes, things like that.
I miss thisss.
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