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1. I'm bi.
2. I'm really bad at being on time and following through with cleaning my room. I'm pretty sure I've told myself every day since summer started "I think I'll clean my room tomorrow".
3. The one person whose arms I'd like to be in. I don't know. I guess mat, if anyone. merr.
4. I've only been on one real date in my life, so it's only the best by default.
5. My self esteem sucks. 50% of the thoughts on my mind throughout the day are about how much I hate my appearance. I'm working on it, though and I've gotten a bit better.
6. Who my best friends are... I don't know. Alexander is my bffl, of course, and I lahve him, but I think we've drifted a bit lately. But I don't know, that'll change soon enough. I've been pretty close to Alia, Waylon and Nigel lately though. And of course there's always Korrin and Emily. But yeah. I don't like to label people "best friends".
7. My favourite book is Wintergirls by Laurie Halse Anderson
8. My biggest turn offs: wormy guys, bad teeth, greasy hair.
9. Describe your best friend: He's flamingly gay and flamingly amazing. He can be so loud, crazy, and just plain hilarious, but there's also the much quieter, thoughtful and deeply caring side of him. It's clear as day he has good intentions and loves his friends a lot. He's also very stubborn and opinionated, but can always cleverly back himself up. And damn, you should hear him sing Kelly Clarkson. So great.
10. CATS ARE MY FAVOURITE ANIMAL, ALWAYS. Although pandas are a close second.
11. Someone I miss. Guh. Well obviously, I'm gonna miss Jason. I also miss my bffl, Nigel, Mat, Rachel, Gaby, probably other people too.
12. The reason behind my last break up was he changed, I guess.
13. I didn't do anything significant yesterday.
14. My greatest achievements: I guess getting accepted into bealart was pretty great? I don't know.
15. A description of the person I dislike the most: He's a confusing person. He's been through a lot and his mental state was not at all good the last time I talked to him. His perspective and opinions on things are very different. He's stubborn, and likes to annoy people, but he also likes to help them. He's the most sexual person I've ever met. He's a good actor and loves to play guitar. Blah.
16. My favourite song always has and probably always will be This Photograph Is Proof by Taking Back Sunday.
17. My last kiss was with Kristin. We were both really high. It was interesting.
18. What I find attractive in the preferred sex: I DON'T HAVE A PREFERENCE. I'm more attracted to a good personality, anyway. But for either sex, I like a nice smile.
19. Cats: Teddy, Precious, Maisie, Teka and Alice. Dogs: Romeo and Cruz. I also had a snake for a little while, but I don't remember it's name and it wasn't technically ours. I also had a tadpole named Richie, a container of ladybugs, and probably fish at some point.
20. I don't have a favourite flavour of ice cream, it's all delicious.
21. The one place I want to be right now... I don't know. No where's comforting. I guess I want to be somewhere surrounded by friends... scratch that, I want to be back at Korrin's birthday party this year, in her room, with Jason and everyone there... Things were really good for me that night.
22. The meanest thing anyone has ever said to me was probably "This is all your fault, Mandy." Because it wasn't something in my power and I did absolutely everything I could to help, even though it hurt me horribly, and scarred.
23. The places I have lived before include denfield, grand bend, byron, kilworth, and riverbend.
24. I'll love you if you're a good person and love cats.
25. My future plans involve doing my best to live a life that makes me happy, with a cat or three.
26. An internal conflict I have with myself is thinking I'm worthless.
27. I don't know what I'm doing tomorrow.
28. I want to be an art therapist when I'm older, or something along the lines of that.
29. I can't think of a most embarrassing moment right now.
30. Two insecurities: my weight and my acne/acne scars. blah.
31. What I would do if I won the lottery: give a lot of it to my mom, save a lot of it, probably donate some.
32. A description of the boy I like: He's extremely friendly and easy to get along with. He has a really big heart, is a talented guitarist, is interested in psychology, loves food, loves soccer, isn't good at sleeping, has good intentions, is very sweet, very funny and makes a nice goonies impression.
33. I guess I love that I care so much about people, even if it usually makes things painful for me in the end.
34. My biggest pet peeve is when people exaggerate extremely about their life. Lying, I guess.
35. I've seen too many bands live to ever list.
36. Refer to number 6
37. I'm not sure if I want any kids in the future. I'm terrified of being a horrible mother or having them hate me.
38. My idea of a perfect date- It has to include good chemistry and a walk someplace pretty outside in the evening.
39. I'm really good at listening to people.
40. My most traumatic experience was my entire friendship with Colin.
41. I don't know where I'd like to live. Some place that makes me happy.
42. I don't know what the nicest thing anyone's ever said to me was. People say a lot of nice things.
43. Do I like where I am right now? I like my bed and my room, but I don't like how messy everything is. I don't like where I am mentally.
44. I can hear my favourite song right now. I've been listening to it a lot tonight.
45. My relationship with my sibling is pretty good. Taylor and I get along really well and have a lot in common.
46. Refer to 19.
47. My biggest worry right now is about Nigel.
48. I can't say something I've wished for repeatedly, otherwise it won't come true.
49. My relationship with my mom is good. She's there for me when I need her, we have a lot of laughs together and we very rarely argue. My dad is dead.
50. What words make me the best about myself? What does that even mean?
51. Something I should have said a long time ago. I don't want to answer this.
52. What my last text message says: I was with him a couple days ago
53. What I hate most about myself: my inability to really open up to people and truly be close to them.
54. Biggest turn ons: people that smell good, neck kisses
55. What words upset me the most- none come to mind right now.
56. What I hate the most about school is how uncomfortable the atmosphere is. Also, teachers that base pretty much your entire grade on how you do on tests. and teachers that don't give you any notes, which I know, teachers don't do that in post-secondary so I should get used to it and blahblahblah

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