Here's what I'm not going to do: freak out, cry, blow things out of proportion, make uneducated assumptions, or make any bad decisions.

Here's what I'm going to do: continue to lay here listening to my favourite song in the whole world since grade 6, do everything I can to accept the past, try and think of something I could do to acquire closure from the past, focus on being calm, think of the things I need to say on wednesday, accept the small mistakes I've made in the past little while, plan on not doing them ever again, realize that they're very small and insignificant, look forward to tomorrow and wednesday, look forward to going to beal next year and talk to my bffl.

That's another good thing that's come from growing up; my coping skills have improved significantly. I'm not crying, I'm not curled up in the dark pretending not to feel this, I'm not cutting, I'm not saying things I don't mean, I'm not blowing things out of proportion. I'm being rational. Golden star for Mandy. (: