I can't stand nighttime. Not when I'm at home and alone.
No matter how great my day's been, I almost always have these stupid thoughts that won't go away. I don't know what to do with them, so I just sift through them like pages from an old book. I'm getting really fucking sick of these thoughts.

I'm gonna post about yesterday now, with a hope of distracting myself. This is going to be detailed. Some of it, anyway.
So, yeah, let's see. I got there around 5:45 and no one answered the front door, so I just went around back. I was, of course, greeted by the familiar scent of their garage, which is weed. Anyway, I found Korrin's parents and they told me they were all at tim hortons, so I marched on over there. I met up with them and we all hung around and walked back to Korrin's. We, being myself, Korrin, Emily, Mat and Alyssia. Once we got back, Korrin's mom told us that Waylon was there and then went to go find us, though clearly that failed. So Alyssia and I went looking for him and eventually found him. We went back to Korrin's and we all ate penis pasta and stuff. We then hung out in Korrin's room, listening to music and drinking a bit, and whatever else. Waylon was clinging to me, which I really didn't like, so I made faces at Korrin until she clued in and asked me to sit with her, where there was no room for Waylon. YAY. Except then Korrin's dad came downstairs when she had her arms around me which was rather awkward! Okay. Eventually, once I was sufficiently tipsy, we all walked to the fireworks. Waylon, Korrin and Alyssia went to buy food so I sat with Emily and Mat, while Emily ranted about how much she hates waylon. So yeah, fun stuff. Then we watched the fireworks, they weren't anything too great, and walked back to korrin's. On the way back, Craig called Alyssia and asked if him and some friends could come over. Korrin was too drunk to say no, so they all showed up. Korrin's mom was pretty mad about that, but the worst was yet to come. We all sat in korrin's room (craig + 6 of his friends) while waylon was lying on a couch upstairs being depressed. eventually I went upstairs to try and talk to him, but I was pretty drunk by then, which was a bad idea. Overall, I'd say I handled it pretty well. Waylon was pretty drunk and really depressed because he was finally noticing that I wasn't into him. I talked about shit from the past, told him I really couldn't date him, barely knew him, and still wanted to be his friend. He seemed to be pretty fucked up so I went to go get Korrin to talk to him, but Alyssia went instead. I sat in Korrin's room with people for a while. Later Korrin came downstairs and told me that everything with waylon was my fault and that he's talking about killing himself. That made me really fucking upset, and emily and mat were blazing, so I went to go find them. Somehow I agreed to take hits from korrin's bong. That was a really bad idea. I'd only been high once before and just barely. Korrin's bong is a beast. Apparently I greened out. It was awful. Everything for an hour or three after that, I can barely remember. At some point craig and his friends left and I completely lost it and cried a whole lot. Everyone wasn't well at this point. Waylon had more to drink I think, and got high, so he was fucked as ever. Emily was mad at alyssia and waylon, alyssia was a mixture of everything, korrin was frustrated, mat was upset, and I was upset. So I think what happened was: I sat outside crying with korrin, mat was inside crying, waylon was godknowswhere fucked as hell and crying, alyssia was trying to help him and emily was bitching alyssia out for good reason. Eventually I got it together and went inside and talked to mat. I can't remember our conversation at all. Korrin was with waylon and alyssia I think, emily was downstairs or something. What I'm told was, waylon was an absolute disaster. Korrin's mom was debating calling an ambulance because his heart rate was way too fast and he was hardcore talking to himself like he had schizophrenia or was possessed. He was talking about killing himself, questioning whether he was alive or dreaming, and saying a bunch of weird shit. Apparently whatever Alyssia was trying to do to help was making it worse. Eventually we all went downstairs, but waylon stayed outside. He ended up sleeping out there. Thankfully, things were completely fine when we didn't have to deal with him, as awful as that sounds. Then emily and korrin attempted to wax their legs. I think. I can barely remember this stuff. Sometime between 12 and 2, I fell on to Korrin's birdcages and that made a loud and awkward ruckus. Korrin fell asleep with whitechapel blaring, emily was asleep/half awake at random times, alyssia was sharing a mattress with some guy who was NOT my brother, and mat and I stayed up all night together. On that note, it was a really good night, and we sort of figured out where we stand. I got somewhere between 10 minutes and 2 hours of sleep. I have no idea. Around 9am I dashed out of korrin's room because my nose ring fell out. I overheard Korrin's mom raging about last night. Pretty much, she hates Alyssia and never wants to see Waylon again and can't even look at him. Yeah. She was a bit mad with me too. We all hid out in Korrin's room till about noon, when Emily, Korrin and I hung out by her pool.

That's pretty much the messy gist of it. Overall, Waylon kind of ruined the night and I never want to see him drunk or high ever again. Also I hate weed. Okay. But other than that, it was really fun!

Now the weird thing is, I got either 10 minutes or 2 hours of sleep last night and I'm wide awake right now. Poop. Byebye blog.