thinkings

Positive post for once~

I feel more like my old self lately than I have in over a year now... but improved. For the past year and a half I was a bit codependent, unmotivated and close minded. I spent less time in thought and more time doing stupid things.. like, hanging on peoples' words, stress eating, watching mindless television, etc. I think I've finally shaken off the temporary codependent phase which is fabulous. I love that I'm not heavily reliant on humans anymore. I spend more time on my own, thinking for myself and exploring possibilities and whatnot. I'm lonely which makes me horribly sad, but it's a bittersweet thing. I've been reading more, focusing on art a lot, handing in better quality work in english, sailing through math, living a healthier lifestyle, and just generally being more productive. School might be a huge downer right now but I really feel like things are going to improve soon enough. The year end show is approaching fast which is really exciting. I'm hopefully going to have a job this summer and possibly going to work full time, so I can start saving for a car. I'm also considering taking an art course over the summer so I can improve a ton for grade 12 art. I'm glad I'm actually doing stuff and not just laying around embracing the sadness all day. c: