I'm feeling really terrible right now and I've been having a lot of terrible nights and it's really difficult to deal with. I keep having these anxiety attack type things and it's just really, really difficult and scares me a lot. I went to the psychiatrist at the hospital and they told me to stick with my new dose of antidepressants and referred me to a cognitive behavioural therapy program. Waitingwaitingwaiting. Waiting for magic pills to brighten up the planet, waiting for bored people with majestic words or something. I hate waiting. I hate feeling like this. I want to sleep for a month and wake up cured. I also got new sleeping pills, cool.